LOSSSSSS

These are my footprints,so perfect and so small.These tiny footprints never touched the ground at all.Not one tiny footprint,... for now I have wings.These tiny footprints were meant for other things.You will hear my tiny footprints,in the patter of the rain.Gentle drops like angel's tears,of joy and not from pain.You will see my tiny footprints,in each butterflies' lazy dance.I'll let you know I'm with you,if you just give me the chance.You will see my tiny footprints,in the rustle of the leaves.I will whisper names into the wind,and call each one that grieves.Most of all, these tiny footprints,are found on Mommy and Daddy's hearts.'Cause even though I'm gone now,We'll never truly part."

Miscarriage.

Unfortunately we have had a miscarriage at 11 weeks. I think what is soo hard about this is we were almost 3 months along. I spent all of Monday night in the ER. The doctor had an ultra sound done on me and he said that there was no yolk sack and that the baby was malformed and did not have a heartbeat. I am of course devastated he said its nothing we did or could have prevented. But I am still upset, I understand that this is not my fault. It still doesn't make the pain go away, the doctor said its just usually women miscarry before they know they are pregnant or right after they find out, its just unfortunate this went on for so long. So know I have cried and will cry again. The hardest part is the after math I will spear the gory details but its really hard to have to know that's your baby coming out and you just have to deal with it. I know this is Gods plan, and I know God will give us a baby. Its just hard to cope with it all right now. Thank God for my wonderful family and friends who are there for Tom and I at this hard time in our lives. We love you.

BABY!!!

Yay, we are expecting our first child in March. So its funny we started to try for a couple of months and then Tom and I decided to wait a couple of months and get some stuff done to the house first. WELLLLLLL, guess what that was not in the master hand. lol. This baby was planned just not at this exact moment, but God does what he feels is right for everyone on his time schedule not your lol. I cant wait to find out if we are having a boy or a girl. This is the first grand-baby for both of our families, I can only guess how spoiled this kid will be. LOL